Well, maybe it wasn’t the hard way for *me*, but it was a hard lesson nonetheless. When I was in my early 20s, my maternal grandmother (the Admiral’s wife) had a serious health event that involved hospitalization, and fear that she was at death’s door. The cause turned out to be not heart failure, not a stroke, not peripheral artery disease, not “old age”, but … pharmaceutical assault. This assault was perpetrated by her trusted family doctor, one she’d been seeing for over a decade. When we pulled open the drawer where she kept her medications and found more than 40 bottles of pills – all current scripts – we figured out pretty quickly what the disease was that we were dealing with. Stupidity. She recovered, and lived another nine years – until the last minute, she was entertaining, cooking, enjoying life, and taking only a few meds. Lesson learned: drugs interact with each other, and in an even more scary way than the recreational drugs I was familiar with had interacted on many of my friends … Fast forward 25 years, and my parents – the Admiral’s daughter and the dashing fighter jock – were battling a couple of health issues. Daddy had Parkinson’s disease, Mom had had a pituitary tumor that had been removed, but that missing pituitary gland had put her on a cocktail of endocrine management meds that had to be delicately balanced to ensure that she didn’t wind up in a permanent sinking spell. I found myself advocating for both of them at various times for equally various reasons, but my hard lesson there was this: unless someone is advocating for you, you could easily wind up dead, or crippled. I discovered that all the years I’d been researching news topics were right handy when…
#HAWMC Day 16: Pinterest! Have a Pinterest page. Have yet to figger out its highest and best use, but today’s prompt tells me to create a board for my health focus and pin three things on it. Well, in typical over-achiever fashion, I’ve pinned four images to my brand spanking new Health Activism board: Why these images? The one on the left is Buckminster Fuller at his best – don’t fight to create change, just create it. The one left-center was shared last week on Day 9. The one right-center is the ribbon I created for Team Plaid, my effort to drive discussion about early detection for all cancer. I am *so* not pink, or any other “one color” advocacy. The one on the right is an example of the tattoo I’d happily get if it meant I’d never have to fill out another blinkin’ health history form.
#HAWMC Day 15 – half-way home. Hallelujah. Maybe. Writing with style. That makes me think fondly of E.B. White’s Elements of Style, the first book about writing I ever read. I know that Bill Strunk co-authored EoS, but since E.B. also wrote Charlotte’s Web, he gets to mostly-solo when I’m in charge. My dad gave me my 1st copy of the book, and it helped me form my voice and style when I was still in grade school. The nuns did their damnedest to turn me into a grrl who wrote properly – IOW boooooooooooooringly and according to their rules – but Strunk & White saved me from perpetrating written assault in the years since. Thanks, dudes. Daddy, E.B., and Bill. All of you. Words come easily to me … most of the time. The closer to a deadline I get on projects where I don’t feel a connection to the topic can be problematic, causing me to both procrastinate and self-flagellate (figuratively only on that second one) as the deadline gets closer … and closer … and … aaaaarrrgh! But I don’t blow deadlines regularly, often, or really ever much at all. Can only think of one time when I did, and that turned out to be due to the chemo treatments I was getting at the time. Chemo-brain made me unable to write. That was Panic City, letmetellyou. I sat down to knock out a simple press release, and … couldn’t figure out what to do. Words weren’t coming, I couldn’t figure out where to start, I was totally frozen and staring at a blank screen. I’ve never been so frightened in my life, other than when I heard the word cancer and my name in a sentence the first time. A week later, the words were back, and I recognized…
#HAWMC day 14 (almost half-way there!) – the prompt we’re given is “describe your ideal day – how would you spend your time? Who would be with you? Have you ever had this day? There are two versions. #1: perfect day, vacation version I wake up to early-morning light coming through the forward hatch on the sailboat I’ve been spending time on, island-hopping in the south Pacific. I stretch, smell brewing coffee … and is that fish on the grill? I roll out of the berth and head to the salon/galley. Yep, there’s coffee, and I see my lover’s legs through the companionway. He’s grilling a fish he caught after he got up a few minutes ago – a wahoo. Wahoo, indeed! We’ve got a day ahead of us. After breakfast, and a short tour back in the berth – why not, we’re alive, let’s celebrate, right? – we prep the dinghy with our dive gear, suit up in light skins, and head to the reefs close by. We dive for about an hour, finding Nemo all over the damn place, along with plenty of his friends. We head back to the boat, shower off, dress in our best t-shirts/shorts/flip-flops, and hop back in the dink to head around the point to town. We rinse off our gear at the town dock, hang at the dockside bar for a bit of lunch, and make some plans with other boat-buddies for dinner that night. We head back to the boat, leave our dink tied to our mooring, and head out for a couple hours of sailing exercise – for us, and for the boat. We’re back at the mooring late afternoon. We stow the dive gear that has been drying in the dink, shower, and dress for dinner in town –…
#HAWMC Day 13 (Friday the 13th – kewl!), and I’m prompted to share 10 things I won’t live without. Well, they say “couldn’t” and I say “won’t” – I’m much more definitive and fierce by nature, as we’ve already established. #1: Common sense This has saved my ass more than once. #2: My very widespread family These people are my … people. I grew up moving all the time, without a strong family anchor I would have been lost. #3: Good coffee You need to ask? #4: Good friends This comes after good coffee ’cause my family are the only peeps who can manage me without caffeine. #5: Good wine Take friends & family. Add good wine. Wonderful experiences ensue. #6: Hot peppers I have an incendiary palate, to go along with my incendiary tongue. Any questions? #7: Hummingbirds See the post from April 5 if you need to know why. #8: Salt water The ocean is my touchstone. I need salt water to feel fully alive. #9: New experiences (daily, if possible) I have an insatiable curiosity to know everything I can about the world I live in. Which explains my 20+ years in the news business, and much more. #10: My ferocity It’s my gift. Really. The world needs warriors who will gear up and speak truth. I like to think I’m one of them, at least when I’m operating at full power.
#hawmc Day 12 says stream of consciousness. i say scream. here goes. i frankly don’t care if you find my language offensive. i grew up with a fighter pilot as a father, he taught me ferocity and i’ve never un-learned it. i worked and lived in new-york-city for manymany years, including manymany years in live/national/international tv news. if you think that doesn’t make you learn the brooklyn alphabet, you’re fucking crazy. i hate injustice. i loathe cruelty. i have no respect for jerks. i don’t care if you think you’re pretty, act like an ass to others an you’re the ugliest thing on the planet. meanness is meaningless, it’s nihilism (look it up) and should be banished from the planet. if we don’t teach kids how to be critical thinkers, they’ll turn into idiots who will buy anything their television tells them to. think about it. weep for our future. if we don’t care for each other, who the hell will? self-esteem doesn’t count, it’s all about the self-worth, bitches. learn this. live it daily. or shut up. don’t believe anything anyone who’s running for office says. look at what they’ve done. if they haven’t done anything, don’t vote for ‘em. it’s that simple. speaking of doing, judge only by deeds, not by words, for everything. it keeps life simple. trust me. ease pain. increase love. share your feelings with kindness. talk to a child like they have a brain. wag more, bark less. speaking of dogs, find out how powerful downward-facing dog pose is, and assume that pose frequently. it will adjust your worldview in ways that will make a difference to everyone. imagine what the world would be like if everyone at any meeting anywhere took a quick down-dog break when things got tense. hard to act like…
For better or worse, I’ve always been willing to start a fire, or a riot, or a fight, to move a cause or idea forward. So why on earth would I not have The Talking Heads’ epic anthem “Burning Down The House” as a theme song? Here’s a live performance: The lyrics:
Dear 16-year-old Mary-now-called-Casey: Mom & dad never meant for you to think, all your life, that you were a hideous fat pig. You had that chunky phase, 12 thru 13, and they did get pretty fierce about your weight. They were operating out of fear combined with love, though, and didn’t ever intend for you to carry that psychic burden. Let it go, now, before it buries you. Stop smoking now, so when you’re in your early 30s you don’t start noticing its effects, and then spend 15+ years trying to quit before finally accomplishing that feat. Quitting now will be the best thing ever. Boys, and men, are going to behave like jerks most of the time when it comes to romance. For at least the next 40 years. Don’t think it’s you. It’s not. You can’t fix a guy, you can’t help a guy, you can’t be a lifeline for a guy. Throwing a lifeline will just haul you overboard. Be happy, be yourself, don’t sell yourself short. Be glad you paid close attention, and did some important worst-case-scenario planning, during health-ed class this year. You’ll know what I’m talking about within two years. We’ll keep this one between ourselves, but know that I know it will galvanize your thinking for the rest of your life. Stick with your dreams. Otherwise you’ll spend a few decades earning a living, but not really living your life. Don’t fear fear. Fear unfocused anger more than fear. That unfocused anger will turn into depression and self-doubt if you let it. You have been warned. That recurring dream you had when you were 10 years old about getting breast cancer? It will turn out to be foreshadowing. But you’ll run with that ball really hard down the field, and you’ll make a…
Time: Friday, March 30, 2012, about 1:30pm EDT Scene: a restaurant Players: 1 woman, 1 man, 2 male extras The woman and two male extras are having lunch and discussing a business project. The woman’s phone buzzes, she looks at the screen Woman: Oh, it’s my sister in law. My brother had brain surgery yesterday, I’ve got to take this. [she touches screen to answer call] Hey there, honey bunch! Man [on phone]: It’s probably not the honey bunch you were expecting. Woman: OH MY GOD, it’s YOU! How ARE you? [she whispers to her companions] It’s my BROTHER! I’ve gotta go outside to hear. I’ll be right back. Man [on phone, at the same time]: I’m GREAT. Although I’m starving. The bran muffin they brought me for breakfast … well, I’m pretty sure my tumor was bigger. Since I didn’t get dinner last night, by this morning I was ready for some serious chowing-down. They promised to do better at lunch. I’m waiting to see what the level of their game is then. Woman: Really? They saw your head open, drag out something huge, and you’re already complaining about the food? That’s … awesome! [laughs] Man: Yeah, I know. I feel pretty good, other than a headache, but they’re giving me meds for that. I’m surprised I feel this good, but I do. [laughs] Woman: You’re still in the ICU, right? Man: Yeah. And I’ve got enough monitoring gear on me that it’s a challenge to get out of bed. I’m allowed to do that, but I have to turn into a juggler to actually accomplish it. Not a great situation, given that I have a bit of a stability issue from the surgery and the meds. Woman: When you get out of there, maybe we could put our…